War

I have not been doing anything for the past two weeks but think of how to win over myself. Well it isn’t just two weeks really. It has been a lifetime struggle. Yeah I know, another melodramatic sentiment of my self centered dedicated page. But aren’t we all self centered in terms of writing anything in one’s blog page? We talk about things about us, someone or things which affect our being. I’m not worried called being a self centered guy because no one will ever knew that I am. I am confident about that. If you happen to read this page, I must say you are blog hopping, if there is such a term. Someone totally unknown to me. But if you happen to know me then I must say you are a friend. An endearment which I carefully tag to anyone. You must be Aaron, Alvin or Ane. People who never left my side and who just did not say I am their friend but showed and made me feel that I was and am. Guys who will know that this post is not about being self centered at all.
The life long struggle that seemed endless is caused by no other else but me. I can imagine how hard it is to get by in times of war. A lot of hiding from the enemy, plotting your next battle day after day just to survive, feeling of losing, and the fear of dying without having done any significant for your country. But the most terrifying war is not against a fleet of Nazi butchers but against somebody who knows your every move and being. Yourself.

I am still at war.

I am scared that I will get tired of fighting and won’t win this battle before my end.